'The end' of Hsc foundation and the 'beginning' of my independent life.

HSC officially ended yesterday as it was the last day of the exams (for most of us) Good luck Accounts people (exam on 16th nov) !! We'll Enjoy the Fun FIRST XD

I sound like a duck now and doesn't feel like talking because of sore throat from my horrible screaming instead of singing yesterday in red box. Being able to sing both english songs and chinese songs are really beneficial, too bad some people doesn't tolerate the differences in our group. I can't blame them but it's really not nice to just ditch our room and go over the other room or shopping without telling. AND NOT PAYING! coming up with stupid excuses. ugh

Enough with that, I have about 10 months of freedom and I have no idea how to use it. I planned that I'll be spending 2 or 3 months on traveling and enjoy the holiday season =D
2009:
November - Langkawi, Bangkok (maybe), UK Education Convention at KL, Prepare Dance for Alumni.
December - Alumni Night, Comic Fiesta, Singapore or Beijing or BOTH, Merry Christmas, Happy new year !

2010:
January - *blank
February - Birthday Party XD, Chinese New Year back at Johor.

- Blank -

May - US OF A AND LAND OF MAPLE SYRUP WHEE!! *will probably spend a month there 8D*

- Blank -

August / September - prepare for UNIVERSITY! *depend on which university offered and the intake month (September/October)
Fingers Crossed for LONDON! XD

Here's some suggestion from my parents and friends:
- Learn French which would be very useful when I'm traveling Europe in UK
- Transfer Programs for 3 or 5 months (not sure there are but going to find out)

Any more ideas?

I went to the place that has A Lot Of Stars (Alor Star) a few days ago.
The town reminded me of my dad's kampung in Johor Bahru - Bekok except that there's at least a shopping mall.
The food was Ok, but not as great as my alor star friends said. No offense guys, it's just that we grew up in Penang, The Pearl of The Orient.....

We went house hopping (visiting friend's houses in Alor Star) , stroll along the lake in Jitra, bowling and the Alor Star tower.

And we took pictures ~

The girls - june, me, sam, jia wei and sook yin.

The guys - Khai Min, Aaron, Qing Ping and Benjamin


I GOT KISSED... by a HUSKY! - Li Yuen's sis's dog!


Attack of the hyperactive husky! - Jia wei, Li Yuen, Muffin and Me !
Muffin's so nice to hug and he has soft fur that the dogs here don't! Wish I can a dog like Muffin~
I'll name it Latte~ 8D

Next day,
Photo taking around the lake in Darulaman, or was it Jitra? I'm confused with Jitra & Darulaman. LOL


Taking the bus back from Alor Star to Butterworth Jetty and riding the ferry back to Penang Island on foot was also a first for me. I can only say one word : "SLOW".

My souvenir from Alor Star was the 痞子英雄 Taiwan Drama which I'm currently watching nonstop.

I really like the characters in the drama- 仔仔(陈在天/痞子）{left} & 赵文廷（吴英雄）{right} . They are cool, good looking and funny. The CSI content in it makes it interesting and even my parents watch it with me :D
Watch it and you'll know how mysterious the drama is!! MUAHAHAHA!!~

Continue with da Drama! *Da suspense is killin' me >.<*

*赵文廷-lover XD

It's a raining saturday morning, a day after the trials exam..

I'm feeling really down.. thinking about every stupid move I did during the exams, afraid to get results below my expectations that might affect my planned future. To go to England, a high-ranked University, a good course.

I know I can go anywhere I want with $$ and my average results.
But I wanted more, I want to be someone outstanding, better and successful in my career in the near future.
I do all this because I love praises that I get from my family and friends, I feel proud of myself and also my family is proud of me.

I want to stand out.

The rain made me cry. Looking through the windows beside this computer, seeing millions of raindrops pouring down the balcony. Tears were only a few, but enough to express out my frustrations and a hug from my father really help me get through it. Thanks dad.

As the rain is coming to a stop, my "Frenchness"(overthinking) too flows with it down the drain, river and to the ocean.
Emotional and sensitive as I am, I can get over this and everything will work out as time goes and my chance to shine will appear eventually.

"No Music, No Life" - Totally agree with this statement. Without music, my life would be filled with boring insignificant stressful regrets. Music accompany me to solve every problems encountered.. Singing or mumbling to the music is enjoyable and stress relieving.

Holiday has started for me for one week and then term 3 starts on September. I'm really wondering how am I going to spend one week's time playing and recovering from the bruises.
There's so much to do and there's very little to do. The external exam is more than a month when term 3 starts, should I start revising??

I need a break, have fun, enjoy life. That's what I live for - Being Happy :)

Don't worry, Be Happy!

The more you work hard for it, The more you get back in return.
However,
Study hard, play hard.
I really like this concept. I do this every time during exam periods. And it kinda works out nicely.

I don't seem to be in any study mood for this exam compared to the mid year last April. Maybe it's because of how me and my friends enjoy hanging out everyday in college and having fun everyday playing and joking around. But it's sad to think about how much time is left before our course ends and we go our separate ways. Till now we all feel that we have just started to know each other more. We share, we laugh, we enjoy and we love each and every time together.
Well, that's just me. :D

Timing is really everything. Time to play. Time to study. But the timing is wrong for me to..
- To keep thinking about someone eventually in everything I do during this exam period.

Not good. >.<

What the heck.

船到桥头自然直。

Have to discipline myself. XD

{ 1 week before trials, study break- which starts tomorrow (10th Aug).
That means I still have 1 week = 7 days = 168 hours = 10080 minutes = 604800 seconds...
Okay, that's just a way to comfort myself for the time being. :3 }

liyun : RAWR!

Since I was young people have been saying that my skin is fair and smooth. I receive phrases like “你的皮肤很白！” every single day.. like just now one of my friend kinda shouted : "Yor, even your hands are fair!" while I was taking tissue from her bag on her lap.....

Usually I don't know how to react to people commenting on my skin. I don't brag about it or compare it to people's skin because it's not polite and it hurt feelings. So, I kept quiet or change the topic.

And here comes the nickname, Snow White.

I have no idea why is she considered one of the Disney princesses. She's not that pretty as the other princesses in Disney. I personally think that she is useless compared to Jasmine, Ariel, Cinderella and Belle. Although Sleeping Beauty only sleeps, she is pretty and really princess-like.

Honestly, I really dislike Snow White. Not because of her story, but people kept on addressing me as Snow White based on my fair skin.

I told them to stop calling me that but they don't care.. *sigh

So whatever.. I'll try my best to get under the sun sometimes, but the thought of skin cancer scares me ..

Lol

Today my chemistry test marks were announced.. and the results kinda proved my exam marks pattern.

I found out that my marks does not stay constant at all, I always get low marks for the less important exams and better marks for the more important ones.
It is good in a way but why not high marks all along?
My own expectations is always high and will always be.
I push myself rather than being pushed by my parents or family members.
Besides, they don't really stress about marks and results. They just want us (3 of their children) to pass, that's all.

My dad reason was : "Me and your mother were not bright when young and you don't have to, but of course try your best as you can."

I actually shocked my dad with my SPM results when he was still in the base camp at Mt.Everest. He received my sms about my results and spread the news to his fellow hiking mates. It was actually the first time I saw him that HAPPY and proud of me.

I liked the feeling, who doesn't?
To be praised and proud of. :)

Okay, back to my exam pattern.
I realized this pattern since my tests and examinations from when I was in form 2.

Form 2 - Failed Mathematics (yea, kinda impossible) in the 1st test which was not counted in the overall and got 'scolded' by my mother. She then asked my brother to give me math tuition every night, EVERYnight..
He can really be a tuition teacher because he gives A LOT of homework.

For example, "do Ex21. ALL , Ex22. ALL and Ex23. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,12 till 1345346" exaggerated but more than what the teacher in school gives.

It all paid off for the mid-year exam, I don't recall what I got but it wasn't bad. After that, my brother left to work in KL.. no more math tuition, I depended on myself then on as I know that I really need to do tons of questions.

The same pattern goes for my ranking in high school for the past few years. Form 1 doesn't count.
I sucked in Form 1 as I was really playing around and did not study at all.. Thus I dropped .. but went up during Form 3 and dropped during Form 4, went up (a lot) in Form 5. *Roller coaster*

I should be doing math questions now because there's Math Extension 1 test tomorrow. I have 4 hours or more to do math tomorrow in college, that's why I'm this relaxed.

Chapter 25 Simple Harmonic Motion tonight @.@

Math gives you -
frustration (when the questions cannot be solved)
happiness (when you solved the question)
and headaches (when there's a combination of the above)

To cure it ?
Sleep

I skipped English class again which was very boring and meaningless sometimes.
I totally forgotten that I have to take English as Second language as part of my HSC course.

This is because the ESL (English as Second Language) classes were canceled for bout 2 weeks for
the second assessment which is a presentation - it's over now and i wasn't that satisfied with the marks i got, but when i converted it to over 20...... it's another thing

Okay, went to Marry brown on Tuesday............. for the first time.......

erm..
jianing, joee - i don't recommend this place for the makan makan trip... it's .... actually it's okay.. i ate the rice with sambal and a piece of chicken, something like nasi lemak but 'Marrybrown' style.

Chemistry Test on Thurs, and "bia" study chemi till don't know what to study.. kept on asking questions with jia xin during Wednesday break time, it paid off as both of us understood the whole equilibrium thing but ... it didn't really came out in the test... whatever, trials and final is more important.
Ugh the test was.... unpredictable... our chemistry lecturer, ms. Leela even wants us to score full! which is impossible for me because i already got some wrong.. going to kena scold.. again~

The idea of watching a horror movie after the test was very sudden..... it was planned during lunch on the day itself. and somehow 14 people were able to go right away, including me of course.
It was VERY funny watching 'Drag me to Hell' with such noisy people. I think we almost irritated the rest of the people in the cinema.. *sorry people*

The movie was scary and creepy, we all curled up in our sits except for one in particular who doesn't have any expression of scared or freaked out at all throughout the movie.. SHE even moved from sitting beside me to sitting alone a few rows behind.

Her excuse was :" I can't concentrate on the movie, you guys were too noisy"

She's damn strong (in religion) and serious about watching a movie,
she told me : 'you should let yourself go into the movie, experience it,enjoy it and be a part of it, but just remember to GET OUT OF THERE of course' LOL

That night, i couldn't sleep... not because of the movie, because I kinda forgotten about it when we played the arcade right after the movie.. a trick to relieve the 'aftermath of the movie'
I dreamed of a bunch of things.. including chemistry such as hydrogen ion and hydroxide ions
I have some past dreams that is something like that but that time I dreamed of sejarah the night the sejarah paper ended.

is this some kind of stress ? if it is, i'm stressed..
i have less hair than i used to have.. does that count?

And yeah, I'm anaemic (since birth because my mother was anemic when i was born) and I have to start exercising and get normal.. but sometimes i feel so lazy~ who doesn't'?

I'm thinking about a lot of things recently.. including career, where to further my studies and social life.

Career= pharmacist? dietitian? accountant?(totally out of the picture)

Where = Plenty knows that I'm more keen to go UK but.... i took up HSC which is for the AUS... kinda regretted though but it didn't matter because i met some pretty awesome friends in HSC and INTI :3

Thus, I'll think bout this later.. after i choose which course I'm going for.

Ah, Decisions, Decisions...

Social Life? I WAS desperate, but soon i feel that it can wait till my exam is over and think about it after that. Besides, HSC course is very sad, Very. it's only 10 months people!
I wonder what would happen to my lovebird friends..

to sum it up: I'm not desperate now, BUT i might consider a relationship if he's serious and really into me, of course there had to be chemistry between the 2 of us.

Anyhow,
That special someone who is perfect for you would eventually appear when the time is right. There's nothing to worry about.. right? ^-^